I had to google the definition of trepidatious to be sure it
meant what I thought it did.
a nervous or fearful feeling of uncertain agitation : apprehension
As a believer who seeks to walk in Victory as He has led and
not in fear as the enemy does, I thought this might not be the best title. What am I communicating with this title? Then I remembered the name of this blog.
Tripping the Walk. I endeavor to
walk this walk of faith well, but, being a fallen human, I do tend to mess it
up each day in some special way. Hence
the tripping.
We are driving across Kansas as I type this, last day of our annual
family vacation. My heart is full as I
feel so grateful for this blessing I have enjoyed with my family. I teeter between the dramatic sense of having
escaped death and the ho-hum of everyday life.
Having known those who have walked similar roads to mine that aren't among us
today, or whom are struggling today, I realize I do have this prized GIFT of
life and it's good to appreciate it so fully.
Our trip was fantastic and full of fun, family, memories,
seeing/learning new things. We made a great big oval in the middle of
America, visited Tom's bro's family in WI, saw some Little House on the Prairie
landmarks along the way, visited the Ark Encounter in Kentucky (totally
recommend if you can get there, so impactful!) and the Creation Museum. A morning along the Ohio River in downtown
Cincinnati was a complete surprise, a
gift from the Father. On the way back we
stopped at Abraham Lincoln's adult hometown of Springfield, Illinois and
learned much together. Finished out the
trip with old and new friends in Kansas for a pitstop and delicious
breakfast. Grateful for this opportunity to travel, have
quality time with our family and make happy new memories. Ahhhhh.....
An update on my health - I FEEL amazing. Mostly healed up from surgery and radiation,
a little tender, so gentle hugs are still necessary and running doesn't feel
great yet, but otherwise good. I have a
small handful of lingering side affects to manage, we are praying for approval
for a somewhat new procedure to help
with one of them. If you feel so led,
please join us in praying for favor with insurance. I do have a new set of regular scans July
11, will be at the Rose campus much of that day. Anyone feeling like some girlfriend time is
welcome to join me if you'd like ;-)
Lunch is on me.
Back in May, Tom and I signed up to host a foreign exchange student from
Japan. He'll be arriving July 23 and
stay for 3.5 weeks. Yuta is a 12 y.o.
boy who will celebrate his 13th bday while with us. We are excited to learn much about Japan from
him and welcome him to our home/family.
Agreeing to host an exchange student and making reservations
for a vacation felt like the first big decisions we had made post cancer that
seemed we were "returning" to everyday life. It felt a little scary to step out this
direction after the trauma this disease gave us for a good 9 months or so, but
it's right. And good. To live fully the life He's granted and to
walk in it. Truly full hearts.
We still talk about the impact this trial has
made, would feel wrong to pretend it never happened. He has something for each member of our
family to learn and grow in through cancer.
Moving forward as we minister to others, it's how we can link our
pain. I can't say I'd ever choose it
again, given the choice, as I sometimes hear others reflect on their trials. None of us has the luxury of going backward, so
we purpose to use it however He chooses just the same. And though I wouldn't maybe choose it again, I do trust He allowed it for His plan and purposes. So I rest in that.
Again, we are grateful for your kind prayers. If you would please join us in praying for
clean scans and for favor with insurance for the procedure we pray will help
me, if it's His will. And if not, for
another solution. Thank you all for your
friendship and love for each of us, we remain appreciative for each of
you.
MUCH love, the Lindemans